The WTF of Decision-Making… (copy 01)

Purpose of this newsletter: To stay in touch with/build a like-hearted community. To share resources. To uplift others. & to support YOUR holistic (whole/total) health & therein awakening as humanity & the planet upgrades in this most significant time of ascension. 
You are receiving this email because you have attended a class, training, retreat, workshop or immersion with me. Unsubscribe if no longer interested. 😘

What’s in this email?

1.  Some thoughts… 
2.  EYC subscribers: weekly drops drop on Sundays. xo
3.  Sample video clip from the donation-based sadhana: EYC

Hi.

Here is what I’m feeling & thinking about today. & for those of you “listening,” thank you. I am, in this very moment, camping out in my van with Egg the cat right in my own front yard. I was completely packed up to spend a couple of days out on my land but never ended up driving out there. I had too much to do on my computer and could not risk being far from people who understand these machines. In terms of GSD (getting shit done) this was a wise decision. Yet again I hit snag after snag after snag on this internet computer machine to the point of near tears. I do not think I was built for this. I do think I was built to make things: colorful cotton string bracelets; poetry; odd, bedazzled 3-D art pieces; bouquets of weeds & wildflowers; yoga classes and self-made meditations. I was built to wake early & swim in spring water with moss-shelled turtles, orange-eyed geese & striped, almost-immobile fish. I was built to zoom around on electric scooters and observe the other beings around me. I was built to learn about the mystical & quantum mysteries of existence & use that knowledge to support others in pain. I was built to hang out with, laugh at & fawn over feline friends.

I often, daily really, marvel at the task we each are called to heed: to BE the infinite energetic/spirit Beings we essentially are, DOing the many many earthly human things we do on the daily. Like recall the 74 passwords we must in this tech age. To keep up with rapidly & constantly changing technologies. To exist as the only species that must pay to eat, drink water & to live on this planet. To tend to the hundreds of our own bodily needs. And now, to do so when all systems we’ve ever known shift, splinter & threaten to fall apart completely. Dear human soul reading these words, God bless you. Zero point, Source, Spirit, Creative Intelligence, Great-mystery, bless you. 

Every single day I wake up with the questions of how to live this odd, dual reality. To live according to the guidance of the infinite Soul I am, inside of this finite, temporary experience that asks of me much with which I am unfamiliar, uncomfortable and downright vehemently dislike. I’d be pathetically lost without the wayfinders and wisdom-keeping mystics & poets, teachers & philosophers. I’m constantly consulting Mark Nepo these days. I just finished April’s monthly Evolving Your Consciousness theme (which comes out on the 1st). Without giving too much away, Mark suggests looking to the birds for support. How their very way of being teaches us that our real priority is to live presently, to “sing and to fly, and that is all.” It is not to figure out our (unknown) destinations, or to find guarantees of outcomes. He writes, “It seems, for birds, it is the act of flying that is the goal. True, they migrate and seek out food, but when flying, there is the sense that being aloft is their true destination.”

I honestly take these words to heart. I have to. Lest I remain confused & miserable wondering daily how to human, when so much humaning often feels so tedious & confusing & alien to me. If I can more often than not remember to be in my life in the moment that is presenting itself, this world feels as if it makes a little more sense.  

Thanks for flying around with me. 

E

PS, below is a quick clip of a longer video made for the donation-based immersive sadhana (daily practice). Details below that to learn more. Enjoy. xo

 Click the image below to begin

           Evolving Your Consciousness